It probably shouldn’t take 34 years to realize you can’t make changes to your appearance without making changes to your “self”, but apparently it has. Finding happiness, acceptance and pride in who you are in the deepest sense and then embracing that is by far the greatest gift you can give yourself. No one else can do it for you either. It’s something that you have to work on and through and no matter what conclusion you come to, there’s more to be learned. Good thing too because otherwise, life would get pretty boring.